Hello everyone,
I am so glad you all haven't left me, I have been responding to some of you via email so you all knew I was alive but for the rest of you, I am still alive I have just been busy with school and home life. Finals week is coming up and then I will be done with this semester thankfully. Not a lot has changed I've finished organizing my home and have my 2nd room/office organized it's sooo pretty I will try to put up some pics of it here but if you want to see them before I get time to do that just go to my facebook they are in my photos. Also something I found interesting happened to me this past month that I want to share with you all. A person whom I don't personally know had stumbled upon my site and sent me an email the first email told me how they had found my website, enjoyed my wriitngs and asked me a simple question "Who are you?", the second email asked me "what have you experienced that changed your life?", so now I will share the answers to those questions with all of you.
Who am I?
I am a student a mother, a daughter, a friend, a shoulder to cry on, a rock to lean against, I am me. I help the less fortunate and always try to find the good in people. I am always happy to help people with their problems and listen to them if they need someone to talk to. I believe in freedom and the right to choose, I am a voice for those who can't speak on their own. I believe anything is possible if you believe in yourself and are given the tools to accomplish your dreams. I've seen the world's evil and lived to tell about it. I am me.
What have you experienced that changed your life?
I've had many experiences that I feel changed my life some for the better others not so much. Out of all the things in my life I've experienced one in particular has altered me in a way that I didn't want to think was possible. What was the experience you ask? I've seen a person take their own life because others taunted and egged them on to do it, I was half a world away and couldn't help them, all I could do was watch hopelessly and pray that a miracle would happen and he would able to survive. He didn't...it was at that time I realized no matter how much I want to help people and save them (even if it's from themselves), I can't, I can't save everyone; however, I also can't give up trying.
I hope you all are doing amazing, thank you again for coming by and reading, I do appreciate it. Feel free to leave comments good or bad they are all accepted.
Willow Monroe
www.willowmonroe.blogspot.com
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Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
I'm BACK!!!
I'm sooo sorry for being so behind. We have moved into our new house, sadly we still are not fully moved in which sucks, but we are a lot closer now than we have been lol. I've been very busy with school work but have decided since it is fall break then I should take some time to catch you all up. So here's a quick Q and A from emails I have received lol
Q: Are you dead?
A: No I am very much alive and well currently lol
Q: Have you moved yet?
A: Yes I have moved, but am not fully moved in yet
Q: How are your animals doing?
A: They are all great and are enjoying their new surroundings, also we got a new cat just a few days ago, I named him Jerimiah because he's a spitting image of Nehemiah but smaller lol.
Q: I was at wal-mart the other day and seen a girl that resembled you was that you (dated Oct. 12)
A: Not sure which wal-mart you were at, and I also don't know the time you were there, but I do go to wal-mart frequently even though I hate it lol, if you see her again go ask her if she is me and if indeed it is me I'll give you the good answer of YES tis I lol.
Q: My mom loves your cats, they are so cute, but how do you care for so many?
A: Thank you, I'm glad you enjoy my cats, I do too lol. I care for all of them because I love them like they are my children, I have a huge love for animals and I love giving them attention so it's not hard to do lol
Q: Would you ever take in an exotic animal?
A: If I could take care of it, sure as long as it's something I would like taking care of, I won't take in a snake or lizard or anything, but things like panthers, and lynx, and things of course I would lol. As a matter of fact, my fiance's friend from work is trying to trap me a baby bobcat lol.
So those are some of the Q and A's I've received as of lately, again I am sorry for responding here so late, and to emails so late, I do appreciate you all for baring with me and keeping an eye on my posts. Now as to the details of my new house. It's on the whole other side of town first off lol, which is good I guess because it's closer to all the stores we go to, so it saves gas lol. Our new house is a 4 bedroom, 2 bath house, with an office area, an attic, a garage and a storage building outside with a fenced in yard. All the boys seem happy to have their rooms again and they're rooms are pretty much in order other than the posters they plan to put on the walls. My room is fixed as well, the only room that isn't fixed completely is our office area and our garage lol. Our yard is huge compared to our old one, the boys love it because they can play baseball in it and put up all their bases and cones and stuff lol. I hope to get to post more frequently now that we have moved, thank you all again.
Willow Monroe
www.willowmonroe.blogpost.com
Q: Are you dead?
A: No I am very much alive and well currently lol
Q: Have you moved yet?
A: Yes I have moved, but am not fully moved in yet
Q: How are your animals doing?
A: They are all great and are enjoying their new surroundings, also we got a new cat just a few days ago, I named him Jerimiah because he's a spitting image of Nehemiah but smaller lol.
Q: I was at wal-mart the other day and seen a girl that resembled you was that you (dated Oct. 12)
A: Not sure which wal-mart you were at, and I also don't know the time you were there, but I do go to wal-mart frequently even though I hate it lol, if you see her again go ask her if she is me and if indeed it is me I'll give you the good answer of YES tis I lol.
Q: My mom loves your cats, they are so cute, but how do you care for so many?
A: Thank you, I'm glad you enjoy my cats, I do too lol. I care for all of them because I love them like they are my children, I have a huge love for animals and I love giving them attention so it's not hard to do lol
Q: Would you ever take in an exotic animal?
A: If I could take care of it, sure as long as it's something I would like taking care of, I won't take in a snake or lizard or anything, but things like panthers, and lynx, and things of course I would lol. As a matter of fact, my fiance's friend from work is trying to trap me a baby bobcat lol.
So those are some of the Q and A's I've received as of lately, again I am sorry for responding here so late, and to emails so late, I do appreciate you all for baring with me and keeping an eye on my posts. Now as to the details of my new house. It's on the whole other side of town first off lol, which is good I guess because it's closer to all the stores we go to, so it saves gas lol. Our new house is a 4 bedroom, 2 bath house, with an office area, an attic, a garage and a storage building outside with a fenced in yard. All the boys seem happy to have their rooms again and they're rooms are pretty much in order other than the posters they plan to put on the walls. My room is fixed as well, the only room that isn't fixed completely is our office area and our garage lol. Our yard is huge compared to our old one, the boys love it because they can play baseball in it and put up all their bases and cones and stuff lol. I hope to get to post more frequently now that we have moved, thank you all again.
Willow Monroe
www.willowmonroe.blogpost.com
Saturday, August 14, 2010
College
What a week it has been, between fixing up things in the house and rearranging, and getting the kids to school and my baby to work I have let it slip my mind that as of Monday morning, I too will be in school. That's right, this soon college has begun, I get to do internship which I am happy about but nervous too, I'm worried what if I mess up, but that's why I've went to college this whole time, to perfect my skills. I'll try to blog as much as I can even if it's just short sweet somethings, to let ya'll know that i'm still alive. Wish me luck, I'm glad to see some of you have been leaving comments and writing me email's. If you have questions as I've said before feel free to contact me, either via email or through comments. I will be happy to respond to you.
Willow Monroe
www.willowmonroe.blogspot.com
www.willowmonroe.wordpress.com
WillowRMonroe@gmail.com
Willow Monroe
www.willowmonroe.blogspot.com
www.willowmonroe.wordpress.com
WillowRMonroe@gmail.com
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Who are they now
I know I have been away for a while and I apologize for my absence. I’ve been so busy with getting ready for school to begin, not only for myself but my three boys going back to school as well. Over the past few days a lot has happened and I plan to tell you about them as quickly as I can, some you may find funny or silly, others you may find crazy, but either way I will be telling them as my schedule permits. I’ll begin with the most recent of these “happenings” first.
Last night while sitting in bed and being bored out of my mind, there was nothing worth watching on TV, I was tired of packing, and unpacking and I didn’t want to start doing that again. So I decided to get out my mini laptop and start a game that I called “Who are they now?” my objective was simple, I look up people that I went to school with and find out how much they’ve changed and in essence who are they now as opposed to who they were when I knew them in school. In all honesty I didn’t think I would have any luck with my game but I was bored so I was gonna give it a whirl worst case scenario I wouldn’t find anyone. However to my shocking surprised I actually found a lot of my old classmates, also to my shocking surprise was just how much some of them have changed, in some instances I would have never known who I was looking at, had they not had identifying marks, birth marks on their face for example, freckle patterns, eyes etc. Now before I go any further I want to state a few things, because I’m sure someone will read this and be like “People change” and yell at me for what I’m gonna say. So for the record I know people change, I’ve changed a lot since grade school and so I’m not saying that other’s don’t change, I’m simply stating that I was surprised by some things I learned while playing my game. So here’s some facts about myself that has happened to me over the years…
I grew up an angry child in a completely dysfunctional home, yet my family and I were close. I learned early on that as long as you’re smile people won’t ask questions, so it was no surprise to me that I’ve been in therapy more times that I can count. I went from being captain of the dance team to 16 and pregnant, from having no want or need to go to college, to completing high school before my class while pregnant and earning a degree in communications, and working on the second one. I went from living day by day and sleeping on a floor to living in an 8bed/8bath house that was loaded, then turned around and gave it all up for love. While I may not be proud of all the thing’s I’ve done in my life, they shaped me into the person I am now, and I wouldn’t change that for the world.
So now back to the original story, I know people change, if you placed pictures of me over the years next to each other you may not believe they are all of me, sometimes I find it hard to believe that they are me. So anyway, I’m playing my game, and finding people left and right, and I start realizing something (And I’m sure this is where people will start badgering me, saying the whole spill of how people change, and all this other stuff), I begin to notice...
THE SIZE 2 GIRLS
The Size 2 Girls were different; the size 2 girls at one time not so long ago were really pretty, peppy girls, who were skinny and the "it" girls. Now they are not so pretty, in school their motto was "if you aren't a size 2 or less you are fat" and thus in their mind none existent, now they are bigger than size 2 some with children some without, but still the point I’m making is they are bigger. Here comes my inner thoughts, I wonder if they would have still had their mentality of a “size 2 or less, or your none existent”, if they knew that in the future they would have been on the opposite side of the spectrum.
THE A SQUAD
I also noticed that some people that I knew were great students, decided against going to college and are now in their own words miserable. My inner thoughts “What happened to make them not go to college, was it that they didn’t want to, or did they not attend to retaliate against their parents, or was it another reason completely different”?
THE LADIES MAN
Another interesting thing I noticed was some of the guys I went to school with who were “ladies man” back in school are now single, and ugly. When I was in school the “ladies man” usually had his own car, money to spend, was always wearing the top name brands, didn’t speak to the ugly chicks (none size 2 girls). My inner thoughts “Was the way they treated people really how they were, was it not a façade put on to show others who the top dog was, was their personality really so bad that people wouldn’t want to be around them as they grew older”?
APPEARANCE
And another thing I noticed, was some of the guys who had typical boy cut, now have long hair, the girls that had been called dykes for short hair, now have long flowing locks. That part was shocking to me, especially Dale, who would have thought he’d look like someone out of a rock star performance. And then there was the dieting thing, girls who once were above the size 2 or less spectrum, now were closer and under the size 2, Catherine was at max a size 1, but I’m thinking double zero, when I knew her, to me she wasn’t fat, she was average, a size 5-6 at most now you can see her bones. I almost cried when I seen how much she had changed, I’ve battled with anorexia and bulimia, and it hurts me to think she may be struggling with the same problem. My inner thoughts “Did what the size 2 girls say to her make her that way, did she really believe you have to be a size 2 or less to be perfect and to exist, she was/is a beautiful person rather they knew it or not”.
THE FIGHTERS
And lastly I noticed that people who once were in different cliques and hated each other, those that would have physical altercations with each other, were friends now, I had to take a double look at some of them, and yes I know more badgering will probably follow because of this but oh well. I took the double look, not because I don’t think people can change, I know they can and I’m glad they are friends and were able to work through their issues, but I took double look because those were people who couldn’t stand by each other without throwing punches. The fighters were friends, those who were picked on during school because they were poor, who were treated like dogs, because they were big, who were knocked down and beat up because they did well in school but sucked at sports, these people are now friends, not associates, friends that actually hang out together in public. My inner thoughts “I am so proud of these people for changing and becoming great friends, they have much more forgiveness in them than I think I could have”.
So there it is, what started out as a game became something completely different, it went from fun because I’m bored, to searching for answers to why they changed, and trying to find a way to help them if they needed it. I wasn’t really every picked on, but I got called some names once in middle school and after fighting the boy, yes I said boy, I never got called names again, until high school when I got pregnant, and at that point in my life, I didn’t care enough about others to fight with people, I had already decided that if people don’t like me and accept me for who I am, then they can kiss my behind, because I won’t change for anyone, and I’m not going to pretend to be something or someone I’m not, I’m gong to be true to myself, and if doing that bothers them, I won’t be losing sleep over it.
How have you changed since grade school, how have those you knew in school changed, if they have changed at all?
Willow Monroe
http://www.willowmonroe.blogspot.com/
http://www.willowmonroe.wordpress.com/
Last night while sitting in bed and being bored out of my mind, there was nothing worth watching on TV, I was tired of packing, and unpacking and I didn’t want to start doing that again. So I decided to get out my mini laptop and start a game that I called “Who are they now?” my objective was simple, I look up people that I went to school with and find out how much they’ve changed and in essence who are they now as opposed to who they were when I knew them in school. In all honesty I didn’t think I would have any luck with my game but I was bored so I was gonna give it a whirl worst case scenario I wouldn’t find anyone. However to my shocking surprised I actually found a lot of my old classmates, also to my shocking surprise was just how much some of them have changed, in some instances I would have never known who I was looking at, had they not had identifying marks, birth marks on their face for example, freckle patterns, eyes etc. Now before I go any further I want to state a few things, because I’m sure someone will read this and be like “People change” and yell at me for what I’m gonna say. So for the record I know people change, I’ve changed a lot since grade school and so I’m not saying that other’s don’t change, I’m simply stating that I was surprised by some things I learned while playing my game. So here’s some facts about myself that has happened to me over the years…
I grew up an angry child in a completely dysfunctional home, yet my family and I were close. I learned early on that as long as you’re smile people won’t ask questions, so it was no surprise to me that I’ve been in therapy more times that I can count. I went from being captain of the dance team to 16 and pregnant, from having no want or need to go to college, to completing high school before my class while pregnant and earning a degree in communications, and working on the second one. I went from living day by day and sleeping on a floor to living in an 8bed/8bath house that was loaded, then turned around and gave it all up for love. While I may not be proud of all the thing’s I’ve done in my life, they shaped me into the person I am now, and I wouldn’t change that for the world.
So now back to the original story, I know people change, if you placed pictures of me over the years next to each other you may not believe they are all of me, sometimes I find it hard to believe that they are me. So anyway, I’m playing my game, and finding people left and right, and I start realizing something (And I’m sure this is where people will start badgering me, saying the whole spill of how people change, and all this other stuff), I begin to notice...
THE SIZE 2 GIRLS
The Size 2 Girls were different; the size 2 girls at one time not so long ago were really pretty, peppy girls, who were skinny and the "it" girls. Now they are not so pretty, in school their motto was "if you aren't a size 2 or less you are fat" and thus in their mind none existent, now they are bigger than size 2 some with children some without, but still the point I’m making is they are bigger. Here comes my inner thoughts, I wonder if they would have still had their mentality of a “size 2 or less, or your none existent”, if they knew that in the future they would have been on the opposite side of the spectrum.
THE A SQUAD
I also noticed that some people that I knew were great students, decided against going to college and are now in their own words miserable. My inner thoughts “What happened to make them not go to college, was it that they didn’t want to, or did they not attend to retaliate against their parents, or was it another reason completely different”?
THE LADIES MAN
Another interesting thing I noticed was some of the guys I went to school with who were “ladies man” back in school are now single, and ugly. When I was in school the “ladies man” usually had his own car, money to spend, was always wearing the top name brands, didn’t speak to the ugly chicks (none size 2 girls). My inner thoughts “Was the way they treated people really how they were, was it not a façade put on to show others who the top dog was, was their personality really so bad that people wouldn’t want to be around them as they grew older”?
APPEARANCE
And another thing I noticed, was some of the guys who had typical boy cut, now have long hair, the girls that had been called dykes for short hair, now have long flowing locks. That part was shocking to me, especially Dale, who would have thought he’d look like someone out of a rock star performance. And then there was the dieting thing, girls who once were above the size 2 or less spectrum, now were closer and under the size 2, Catherine was at max a size 1, but I’m thinking double zero, when I knew her, to me she wasn’t fat, she was average, a size 5-6 at most now you can see her bones. I almost cried when I seen how much she had changed, I’ve battled with anorexia and bulimia, and it hurts me to think she may be struggling with the same problem. My inner thoughts “Did what the size 2 girls say to her make her that way, did she really believe you have to be a size 2 or less to be perfect and to exist, she was/is a beautiful person rather they knew it or not”.
THE FIGHTERS
And lastly I noticed that people who once were in different cliques and hated each other, those that would have physical altercations with each other, were friends now, I had to take a double look at some of them, and yes I know more badgering will probably follow because of this but oh well. I took the double look, not because I don’t think people can change, I know they can and I’m glad they are friends and were able to work through their issues, but I took double look because those were people who couldn’t stand by each other without throwing punches. The fighters were friends, those who were picked on during school because they were poor, who were treated like dogs, because they were big, who were knocked down and beat up because they did well in school but sucked at sports, these people are now friends, not associates, friends that actually hang out together in public. My inner thoughts “I am so proud of these people for changing and becoming great friends, they have much more forgiveness in them than I think I could have”.
So there it is, what started out as a game became something completely different, it went from fun because I’m bored, to searching for answers to why they changed, and trying to find a way to help them if they needed it. I wasn’t really every picked on, but I got called some names once in middle school and after fighting the boy, yes I said boy, I never got called names again, until high school when I got pregnant, and at that point in my life, I didn’t care enough about others to fight with people, I had already decided that if people don’t like me and accept me for who I am, then they can kiss my behind, because I won’t change for anyone, and I’m not going to pretend to be something or someone I’m not, I’m gong to be true to myself, and if doing that bothers them, I won’t be losing sleep over it.
How have you changed since grade school, how have those you knew in school changed, if they have changed at all?
Willow Monroe
http://www.willowmonroe.blogspot.com/
http://www.willowmonroe.wordpress.com/
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