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Sunday, September 19, 2010

Q and A

Ok so I know this has been a long time coming, and a lot of people have been asking about when you gonna post the "Q and A Willow", so this is just a bit of the questions, I'll add more Q and A postings as they come, as well as post pictures possibly later today but no promises. I've had one of those draining days where it feels like all my energy has went out the window but I did say I'd post again soon so here it is lol. I hope you enjoy this post as much as the others, as usual feel free to ask more questions, make comments, etc.



Are you a real person
Yes I am very much a real person lol

What do you look like?
This is a question I get asked time and again so here it is once and for all. I am 4 foot 10 inches tall, or should I say short lol. My original hair color is brown, I dye it often and currently it’s pink. My eye color is green. I have 4 tattoos unless you count the ones on my hips/stomach as one each and then it would be 5. I have a few piercings, and a somewhat humorous story about how I got them that I will post eventually lol. I have my belly button pierced, I have my bottom lip pierced (I think they call it snake bites), and I have my ears pierced two times each. Hopefully this answers your question.

Why don’t you post more pictures?
Well to be quiet honest I have planned to post more pictures, however my computer/blogging time is limited so I don’t always get around to doing it, but I do plan on posting more pictures as soon as I can.

What is your favorite color?
My favorite color is Pink, not any pink either, I’m picky, I like the neon pink, not Barbie pink, or fuchsia pink, just a nice neon pink. I love bright colors, they make me happy. Before you complain, I also like dark colors but bright colors are more of my favorite.

How many kids do you have?
This is a tricky question and let me explain why. I consider myself to have 4 children total; however biologically speaking I am only the mother to 2, one of which passed away prior to birth. So I am only able to touch 3 of them, and they are all boys between the ages of 7 and 10.

What’s your favorite cereal?
I currently enjoy Trix swirl lol, I use to enjoy cinnamon toast crunch, and capt’n crunch, but I got sick one day after eating some and now the thought of eating it reminds me of being sick so I don’t eat them anymore.

Where do you live?
I live in the United States, a place called Oklahoma, I will not pin point my exact location because I don’t need anymore stalkers lol.

What do you like to do during the day?
When I’m not busy with school, or kids, I like to watch tv shows, listen to music, I enjoy doing art projects, and scrap booking, I write short stories, and silly lyrics for songs that only I can sing lol. And of course I blog so yeah I do a lot during my free time during the day.

What are you going to college for?
I am going to college because I enjoy learning as weird as that may sound. I’m a psychology major and have a degree in communications.

Why do you only mention your fiancé as your fiancé why don’t you say his name?
Hmmm, good question and well I don’t know why I don’t use his name more often. But his name is Benjamin, and I call him my Benji, or B and if that doesn’t work I’ll call him Frankie which is an inside joke lol.

What’s your favorite candy?
This is a hard question, because I love gummy bears, and I love twizzlers, so I can’t pick just one, so those are my two favorite candies currently lol. I am picky with my gummy bears though, I only eat the Haribo brand.

What animals do you have?
I have several cats/kittens, and 2 roborovski hamsters named Thumbelina and Tom Thumb, for those of you who don’t know what a robo is just google it. I use to have a lot of mice but they multiplied too fast so I gave them back to the pet shop. I also had 4 dogs two pit bulls and two that I believe were labs but don’t quote me on that part, they were cute and homeless so I took them in. Now they are all living on a farm where I can visit them and they have plenty of space to run and live happily.

What did your uncle do?
First off, which uncle are you speaking about lol. If you are talking about the post in which I mention my uncle then here’s the short answer. My uncle went on a killing spree after police failed to arrest the person responsible for shooting his brother/my father and leaving him for dead. I will elaborate more on this in another post so that you will all get a better idea of what occurred but that’s the short end of a long story lol.

How old are you?
Well according to my birth certificate I will be turning the dreadful 25 this year, but there is good news, I don’t feel a day over 18 so it’s all good lol.

Why were you in Anger Management classes?
I was in Anger Management Classes when I was younger, obviously because I had anger problems; I was kicked out for not following the rules, and have found my own way of coping with my anger. While I may not have it completely under control I do know my triggers and can remove myself from a situation before it escalates to the point of no return.

Do you really write short stories?
Yes I do write short stories, and I have written a few plays. I don’t know if they are any good, I have showed them to several people including a professor at my college who used one of my plays for a school program, all the people who have read my work say great things about them, and how I should try to pursue a job in writing but I don’t think they are serious. I think they just say that because they know me, and are bias toward me.

What was the happiest time in your life?
I’ve had several happy times in my life, if I had to name two of the happiest times of my life it would have been both times I found out I was pregnant. I was at rock bottom when I found out I was pregnant with my son, and I always say he saved my life, if I didn’t get pregnant when I did, I would have died a long time ago, and the second time I was pregnant with my little girl I was so extremely happy, because I then had my prince and my princess, sadly my princess died and now I only speak to her in my thoughts and dreams.

Do you collect anything other than old photos?
Yes I collect old photos, journals, diaries and the such; I also collect art supplies, and art period. I collect things with Marilyn Monroe, Elvis Presley, Audrey Hepburn, Dita Von Teese, and many types of deviant art. I am a collector of pens, as crazy as that may sound I love gel pens, I have a ton and love writing with them. I collect bright things and things that are out of the norm. I like Victorian things, and like to collect old clothes so when I play dress up (Yes at my age I still play dress up, no I don’t mind that it seems immature to many people, I won’t lose sleep by what you think of me). I collect a variety of things so narrowing it down would take a while but there’s a few for ya.

What type of music do you listen to?
I listen to all types of music, I enjoy the oldies, yes I know people rag on the oldies at times for instance the songs Yellow Ribbon and Seasons in the Sun are a couple of my favs, they are old, but so are your parents and you still listen to them so don’t bash me for listening to old music lol. The only type of music I won’t listen to is music where I can’t understand a word the person is saying, those that scream in the microphone instead of singing, most Opera music, elevator music, and some rap. So everything else I do listen to. I love music it’s been a great part of my life and I’ve been lucky enough to pass the love for music onto my children.

What else do you do?
Umm, you’re going to have to be more specific, I do a lot of things, as I said before I’m a mother, a student, a fiancé, I’m a rockstar in my own mind (I love to sing, while it may not be in tune I will still sing and not care what others think lol) I love doing art projects, and learning. If you want to know more you need to be more specific sorry

Are you really as funny in person as you seem to be?
Yes, I suppose so lol, I tend to make people laugh even when I don’t mean to. I do things during my day that apparently amuse people so yes I am funny in real life. I can entertain myself without anyone’s help to the point where I’m laughing so hard I can’t breathe, if that helps any lol.

Do you have an illness?
Strange question and I'm not sure what you mean by illness, if you are asking if I am sick, currently yes due to strep throat. I do have a thyroid problem but I don't consider that an illness it's more of a medical condition. I have been diagnosed with MPD also known as DID, (MPD is multiple personality disorder, and DID is Dissociative Identity Disorder), as well as PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) I don’t let it bother me, it’s just another part of who I am, and if someone doesn’t like it I won’t mind.

Do you really go to grave yards?
Yes I really do go to grave yards, strangely enough its one place I feel at peace, I can go to a cemetery and feel all my worries and stresses lifted.

Do you want to move because of ghosts?
I answered this before in a post, but I’ll answer it again. I am not planning to move due to any haunting/ghost sightings etc. I am planning to move due to our current homes leaking roof, and black mold problems; it has created a lot of water damage and is making my family sick. So I think a new residence that is safer for my family would be a good idea. I don’t mind if it is haunted or not, as long as there isn’t blood in the bathtub then I’ll be okay lol.

Did/Do you have an eating disorder?
I did struggle with an eating disorder; to say that it’s not an every day struggle would be a complete lie. At times I have fallen back into my old habits, such as restricting my food intake or simply not eating for a couple of days. It’s not something I set out to do it just happens, I’ll either get too busy to eat or just won’t be hungry and so I won’t eat.

What caused your eating disorder?
My eating disorder began when I was younger, I had a rough child hood as did many people I know. I couldn’t control my life and what was happening to me but I could control food, and so I developed an eating disorder, when I recovered I relapsed due to being called fat and people constantly talking about my weight, (my lowest was 85lbs, my highest was 152lbs that was when I was pregnant), my current weight fluctuates between 95 to 110 lbs, and apparently 110lbs is fat, so that’s been a struggle. I also had a major addiction to pills when I was younger it too started out as a way to cope with things in my life and developed into a huge problem. I’m currently drug free and have been for 10 years and don’t plan to go back to my old ways ever again.

What are your tattoos of, do they have meaning?
As I said before all of my tattoos have meaning behind them. My first tattoo I got was on my lower back (tramp stamp), it is some tribal with butterflies and the word princess and a crown. The butterflies represent my growth during my life, I finally spread my own wings and left a horrible place in my life, every girl wants to be a princess, so I got princess with a crown, so no matter how bad my life gets I’ll always be a princess and always have my crown. My second tattoo was on my hips, its falling stars; the reason behind it is sexual in nature so I won’t be disclosing that information since some younger people do read my blog. My third tattoo is a pixie, not to be confused with a fairy that is on the back of my shoulder. My pixie is my inner child, she’s full of love and life and people are drawn to her, and no I’m not just saying that, many people who have seen my tattoo tell me that something about her draws them in. My last tattoo is on my ankle, I’m not as close now with my family as I once was, (however we were never a tight knit family), but the tattoo is for my father, he became very ill and the doctor’s weren’t sure if he was going to pull through, so I got a tattoo on my ankle that reminds me of him/everything about him and it says “Til Heaven Falls”, because I will love him ‘Til heaven falls regardless if we get along together. It has roses, a musical note, a diamond, and a heart. The musical note represents my father’s musical talent’s he sings, and plays guitar and is the person who taught me to play guitar and told me it’s okay to sing even if you don’t sing in tune as long as it makes you happy. The diamond represents the nickname he gave me, ever since I can remember my father instead of calling me by my name has always called me Diamond. The heart is obviously for love, and the roses represent a song he wrote that I love.

Are you planning to get anymore tattoos or piercings?
Yes I plan to get more tattoos, and possibly piercings, currently I have everything I want pierced, pierced but if I decide to pierce something else I will. Another question about my tattoos and piercings was if they hurt, and here is my honest to god answers. None of my tattoos were painful with the exception of my hip/stomach tattoos. I fell asleep in the chair when I got my back tattoo done, which was my very first tattoo. However my hip tattoos hurt like a mother fucker, they go from my hips to right above my pubic area, which is tender all on its own without being tattooed. I would not advise anyone to get a hip/stomach tattoo unless you have a high tolerance for pain. I held my boyfriend at the times hand and it turned his hand purple because I was squeezing it so hard, just to give you an idea of how painful it was.
What’s your favorite sport?
I’m not a big sports fan, however if I had to choose one I’d say hockey, something about death via hockey skate, and death via hockey puck is awesome to me, I know weird; and people are probably thinking “Yep she’s a psycho”, but something about it is interesting to me, and I can actually keep up with what’s going on in it, as opposed to football. I feel the only good thing about football is the cheerleaders and lately they are lacking. I would watch football if they had an all girls team, with scantly clad clothed girls, that sometimes got their tops ripped off, a boob shot every now and again would be nice lol. I don’t like baseball it’s boring to me. I do like soccer and tennis but only if I’m playing it myself, it’s not something I can watch and enjoy.

What’s your sexual preference?
Hahaha, well currently I’m prefer my fiancé but if you are asking if I consider myself straight, bisexual, or gay. I consider myself bisexual I like men and women equally and have dated both.

What activities do/have you done?
By activities what do you mean? I don’t understand your question at all I’m sorry. If you mean activities like extra circular activities I’ve done, those would be everything from choir to being captain of the dance team, to being a cheerleader where I won Spirit Leader.

When are you getting married, do I have a chance?
Hahahaha, this is a very funny question. I don’t know you, so no you do not have a chance, I am very happy with my fiancé he’s a great person. We haven’t set a date to get married for a few reasons. 1. I don’t need a piece of paper to show me that I am with someone. I feel that I can love someone without the law saying it’s official or not. 2. I’ve never really liked the idea of marriage, I think it’s something that gets “abused” too much, if I ever do get married it will be forever, and by forever I mean forever. If things begin to go down hill, and we are unhappy we simply tell each other, we break up, we will stay in the same house, we will raise our children together, and I will have my life, and he will have his life and neither of us shall complain about the other. 3. Again it goes back to the marriage license paper, what can a piece of paper say that I can’t say myself, a piece of paper is just that it’s paper, it’s a legal document saying I am married to someone, it doesn’t show how much or little I love the person so I think it’s pointless to have. And lastly, from my personal experience of what I’ve seen in my lifetime marriage and my family just don’t work. My brother has been married and divorced from the same woman more times than I can count. My oldest sister has been married 4 and divorced 3, but is working on her 4th divorce as we speak, so it’s never worked. Only one of my aunt and uncles has stayed together yet neither of them is faithful to the other and they both know this, they claim they would get a divorce but they don’t have the money to do so. Which gives me just one more reason why I shouldn’t get married, it seems to cost more to get out of the marriage then to get in one, and well I have better things I can spend my money on lol.

What race are you?
First I must ask you why my race matters. Are you a racist? I don’t like racist people; I feel they are small minded, ignorant beings but whatever. If you must know I am a white girl, however my grandpa was part Indian so I suppose I can be Indian, but my grandma on my mother’s side is African American so I suppose I could be African American too huh. If you look at me I am plain white, I have been told I have a large ass for a small white girl and nice cheek bones so take that and run with it. When filling out the questionnaire for race at school I always check the other box, and write Heinz 57 so yeah you figure it out lol.

Can you speak any language other than English?
Not as well as I use to, but yes, I do know some Spanish, Portuguese, French, and Choctaw. The only language I speak fluently is English. I am interested in become more fluent in other languages though so if you want to try and teach me another language feel free too. I was taught how to speak like a person from New Zealand, that went pretty good I guess…by that I mean they asked “What’s a peck”, and I replied “A peck is when a chicken bites you”, apparently Peck is pack, and earplane is airplane, and sux is actually six, so yeah…

How much do you sleep at night?
Not a lot lol usually between 3-4 hours

Are you always happy?
More times then not I am a happy person. I always try to find the silver lining in everything and I’ll give you an example of that in a moment. But to answer your question, everyone has their bad days, and I can be a bitch, I do get sad at times, I do get depressed, but for the most part I am always happy. Now by seeing the silver lining in everything, here’s the example, I had a lump in my breast a few years ago, went to the doctor they ran some tests, while waiting for the results instead of being a downer because I may have cancer like everyone else in my family was. I was looking on the positive side, and I do not mean to offend anyone by what I’m about to say, but it’s honestly how I feel about the situation. I thought well if I have breast cancer, I’ll just get a double mastectomy and have a surgeon on stand by to put in implants, and come out with a better bigger rack than when I went in. Some people think that’s strange but that’s how I felt and still feel that way and no I do not have cancer all results came back good.


What religion are you?
I don’t place myself in a specific category for religion. I am not a church goer, I’ve ran off people who come to my door trying to get me to attend their church and press their religious views on me. I believe what I believe and it’s not what most others believe that’s the best way I can describe it. Some call me agnostic but I don’t label myself as anything.

Who did you vote for?
I voted for myself of course lol. I don’t like politics it’s a touchy subject one that causes lots of fights from what I’ve seen. I don’t label myself as republican or democrat or anything else. It’s another one of those things where I believe what I believe and it may not be what others like or agree with. So I vote for myself lol.

What’s your favorite book, and movie?
I don’t have a favorite book and I have a lot of favorite movies, “Hot Tub Time Machine” is one that I’ve enjoyed a lot recently.

Are you team Edward or team Jacob?
Do I strike you as a vampire person… I don’t watch twilight, I’m on neither’ team.

What is something no one knows about you?
Oh there is plenty people don’t know about me, but for your humor I’ll tell you this secret but you can’t tell anyone. I’m a secret Agent, and ninja and I wear pimpin’ colorful sometimes rainbow thigh high socks hahahaha

Who’s your best friend outside your family?
My best friend outside my family is Mikey!!! The name alone does you no good I know so here’s a bit about my friend. He’s a great guy from Philly we talk on the phone a lot, he’s asked me to marry him more times than I can count, at times he can be an ass but he’s a guy it’s in their genetics lol.

**UPDATE**

So my favorite sport was Hockey, now I have a second favorite sport, yes my prayers have been answered oddly enough lol. So now I like Hockey and LFL (Lingerie Football League)!!! Mercy lol



So this is the list thus far, if you’ve got any more questions feel free to send them as always, and I’ll be sure to answer them as quickly as I can.

Willow Monroe
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Saturday, August 14, 2010

College

What a week it has been, between fixing up things in the house and rearranging, and getting the kids to school and my baby to work I have let it slip my mind that as of Monday morning, I too will be in school. That's right, this soon college has begun, I get to do internship which I am happy about but nervous too, I'm worried what if I mess up, but that's why I've went to college this whole time, to perfect my skills. I'll try to blog as much as I can even if it's just short sweet somethings, to let ya'll know that i'm still alive. Wish me luck, I'm glad to see some of you have been leaving comments and writing me email's. If you have questions as I've said before feel free to contact me, either via email or through comments. I will be happy to respond to you.

Willow Monroe
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Who are they now

I know I have been away for a while and I apologize for my absence. I’ve been so busy with getting ready for school to begin, not only for myself but my three boys going back to school as well. Over the past few days a lot has happened and I plan to tell you about them as quickly as I can, some you may find funny or silly, others you may find crazy, but either way I will be telling them as my schedule permits. I’ll begin with the most recent of these “happenings” first.

Last night while sitting in bed and being bored out of my mind, there was nothing worth watching on TV, I was tired of packing, and unpacking and I didn’t want to start doing that again. So I decided to get out my mini laptop and start a game that I called “Who are they now?” my objective was simple, I look up people that I went to school with and find out how much they’ve changed and in essence who are they now as opposed to who they were when I knew them in school. In all honesty I didn’t think I would have any luck with my game but I was bored so I was gonna give it a whirl worst case scenario I wouldn’t find anyone. However to my shocking surprised I actually found a lot of my old classmates, also to my shocking surprise was just how much some of them have changed, in some instances I would have never known who I was looking at, had they not had identifying marks, birth marks on their face for example, freckle patterns, eyes etc. Now before I go any further I want to state a few things, because I’m sure someone will read this and be like “People change” and yell at me for what I’m gonna say. So for the record I know people change, I’ve changed a lot since grade school and so I’m not saying that other’s don’t change, I’m simply stating that I was surprised by some things I learned while playing my game. So here’s some facts about myself that has happened to me over the years…

I grew up an angry child in a completely dysfunctional home, yet my family and I were close. I learned early on that as long as you’re smile people won’t ask questions, so it was no surprise to me that I’ve been in therapy more times that I can count. I went from being captain of the dance team to 16 and pregnant, from having no want or need to go to college, to completing high school before my class while pregnant and earning a degree in communications, and working on the second one. I went from living day by day and sleeping on a floor to living in an 8bed/8bath house that was loaded, then turned around and gave it all up for love. While I may not be proud of all the thing’s I’ve done in my life, they shaped me into the person I am now, and I wouldn’t change that for the world.

So now back to the original story, I know people change, if you placed pictures of me over the years next to each other you may not believe they are all of me, sometimes I find it hard to believe that they are me. So anyway, I’m playing my game, and finding people left and right, and I start realizing something (And I’m sure this is where people will start badgering me, saying the whole spill of how people change, and all this other stuff), I begin to notice...


THE SIZE 2 GIRLS
The Size 2 Girls were different; the size 2 girls at one time not so long ago were really pretty, peppy girls, who were skinny and the "it" girls. Now they are not so pretty, in school their motto was "if you aren't a size 2 or less you are fat" and thus in their mind none existent, now they are bigger than size 2 some with children some without, but still the point I’m making is they are bigger. Here comes my inner thoughts, I wonder if they would have still had their mentality of a “size 2 or less, or your none existent”, if they knew that in the future they would have been on the opposite side of the spectrum.

THE A SQUAD
I also noticed that some people that I knew were great students, decided against going to college and are now in their own words miserable. My inner thoughts “What happened to make them not go to college, was it that they didn’t want to, or did they not attend to retaliate against their parents, or was it another reason completely different”?


THE LADIES MAN
Another interesting thing I noticed was some of the guys I went to school with who were “ladies man” back in school are now single, and ugly. When I was in school the “ladies man” usually had his own car, money to spend, was always wearing the top name brands, didn’t speak to the ugly chicks (none size 2 girls). My inner thoughts “Was the way they treated people really how they were, was it not a façade put on to show others who the top dog was, was their personality really so bad that people wouldn’t want to be around them as they grew older”?


APPEARANCE
And another thing I noticed, was some of the guys who had typical boy cut, now have long hair, the girls that had been called dykes for short hair, now have long flowing locks. That part was shocking to me, especially Dale, who would have thought he’d look like someone out of a rock star performance. And then there was the dieting thing, girls who once were above the size 2 or less spectrum, now were closer and under the size 2, Catherine was at max a size 1, but I’m thinking double zero, when I knew her, to me she wasn’t fat, she was average, a size 5-6 at most now you can see her bones. I almost cried when I seen how much she had changed, I’ve battled with anorexia and bulimia, and it hurts me to think she may be struggling with the same problem. My inner thoughts “Did what the size 2 girls say to her make her that way, did she really believe you have to be a size 2 or less to be perfect and to exist, she was/is a beautiful person rather they knew it or not”.


THE FIGHTERS
And lastly I noticed that people who once were in different cliques and hated each other, those that would have physical altercations with each other, were friends now, I had to take a double look at some of them, and yes I know more badgering will probably follow because of this but oh well. I took the double look, not because I don’t think people can change, I know they can and I’m glad they are friends and were able to work through their issues, but I took double look because those were people who couldn’t stand by each other without throwing punches. The fighters were friends, those who were picked on during school because they were poor, who were treated like dogs, because they were big, who were knocked down and beat up because they did well in school but sucked at sports, these people are now friends, not associates, friends that actually hang out together in public. My inner thoughts “I am so proud of these people for changing and becoming great friends, they have much more forgiveness in them than I think I could have”.

So there it is, what started out as a game became something completely different, it went from fun because I’m bored, to searching for answers to why they changed, and trying to find a way to help them if they needed it. I wasn’t really every picked on, but I got called some names once in middle school and after fighting the boy, yes I said boy, I never got called names again, until high school when I got pregnant, and at that point in my life, I didn’t care enough about others to fight with people, I had already decided that if people don’t like me and accept me for who I am, then they can kiss my behind, because I won’t change for anyone, and I’m not going to pretend to be something or someone I’m not, I’m gong to be true to myself, and if doing that bothers them, I won’t be losing sleep over it.

How have you changed since grade school, how have those you knew in school changed, if they have changed at all?

Willow Monroe

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